AfterMath

2011-04-10T23:16:00.001-07:00

Hello, i have relocated to

http://ctrlz-fragmentation.blogspot.com/ <3

2011-04-06T23:44:00.000-07:00

My last post before i move address and account.

My 21st birthday went somewhat according to plan, i gave it 60% for execution and 80% for effort. .

I wanna make it kinda special and different, and here are things i did on my own for myself.

1) Prepare pink roses for 20 girls

2) Do doorgift of chocolates and love quotes, supposing to be cookies but then it was chinese new year so my mother said chocolates more appropritate.

3)Do a montage of myself of my past, and suprising there was no picture of Dave then inside, and he asked me why. I called it intuition that i dun wanna include him in my past, and a few days back he was enjoying himself very much with another girl.

4) Do prizes for best dressed and most cute, sweetest, and glamourous couple. Took me like 1 whole week but it was worth the effort to see other people use my thing..

Most glamourous couple frame..

Wave of the golden wand

My accessories.

At first i tried with the pink gems

But i don think it looked nice

Then i tried purple and white..

And made a red heart above..

Testing..

Did the new cute couple..

This frame took the least time to make.

Lace and ribbons..

Testing..

Then i tried to do a most funky couple but i changed it to the sweetest.

The plastics bits won stay.

Fast forward to the day itself

Me putting ballons..

The harmonica used by jia ying to play for me

Mom and florence putting makeup

Marco doing ballons for me..

Yeo doing the cupid for me later.

Wanted to do a heart shaped ballon montage but failed horribly

But i think its the thought that counts and couples took photos with my ballons.

Mr cupid..

Oh, did i mention he bought his bow and arrow down??

Its really his own home made weapon.

_Ctrl Z_

Dave and his family

And my montage.. Pictures of me from baby till now..

The magician and his girlfriend, i said i wanted a macroon tower but i didnt make a marcoon tower

It ended up as a macaroon sculputre.

Dave mom and his niece Rachel, who is really cute. Still rmb that time when he made me cry she was nice enough to console me.

Alexiel helping me with balloons..

Florence doing makeup for my neighbour

Pretty!

Me checking out my cake...

And yeah my make up that day was supposed to be artistic..

And yeah, i managed to find Chanel Tattoo for that day.. Its over my neck..

Thank you Jia Ying!

Lo and behold, my birthday cake.

Its really pretty until you eat it.

I asked for Lemon Cake and they gave pandan instead. and i thought at least they have some layer cake with cream filling but its really just plain pandan cake. And the icing is so sweet.

Worst tasting and prettiest looking cake of my life.

And where i got it : www.cupcakedivinity.blogspot.com . This thing cost me $260. But i think its is only worth $20.

My bestie in seconday school . Yue :)

And her boyfriend

*Conflict caught in action*

Macro looking so cool. He gave me a bouquet for the day.

The different prizes..

Look at the sweetest couple frame.. Made with nail rubber stamps.. It cost around 25 bucks to make this frame.

Dave sis put the nail for me.

Some of my presents..

Check out who is in the house! Its florence's bf.

Jiaying is my photographer for the polaroid camera.. Couples get to keep as momento.

A chef to bbq my food.

Being the birthday girl, i never get to eat alot..

Ok, the buffet is set..

I asked jia ying to put in the flower petals and candles for me..

So artistic..

People eating the buffet.
If you think how come the shoots are so blur, it is due my shaky photographer brother..

Poly mates..

Esther and her boyfriend

Tammy and her boyfriend

Cupid giving out gifts..

Love struck.
Lolx

Me and classmate jacinta
She is the best!
Mother of 2 and still very cool

With uncles, cousins and sister

Dessert

My macaroon

Hanging on the dollm now its on my wall

Poly mates

Esther hand.. so cool.

Couple polariods..
Come to think of it, all of my secondary school girl friend have boyfriends now, and i am the only one single..
And i started dating earlier than them. Lolx.

Magic show is progress

After magic show, the segment was my mother putting on a necklace for me.

After which is the harmonica playing by jia ying,

But the photographer never take photo of her haiz...

Next is cake cutting of this monster cake.

Phototaking with yue
The rabbit was a gift from Dave

My secondary school soul mates

Whats life without this 2 jokers..

Primary best friends.

Lavigne From Miss Earth

She is Miss Fire

Photos with their family
I seriously think will be the last.

Me caking my cake
Making lots of wishes.

I dunnoe why, but i think he was supposed to hold my hand to cut the cake, but oh well..

Secondary school

Family

Primary school

Extended family

Babes

Trio

Dave family

Only after the picture, i realized i didnt take a couple photo with him

Neighbour

Magician

Cutting

Most glam couple

Most cute couple

The rest of my poly mates

Thanks pb for being my EMC that night.

And she bought her cat friend along :)
Thanks cat friend

Me and Faith

Who knew we were a couple right?

<33

Present from relatives

Diamante watch

Makeup kit

Hair band from my sis..

Underwear from Faith

Its La Senza

and versace perfume from poly mates.

Heartfelt note from poly mates..

A chicken clockwork from Yeo

A blackberry from Dave

Top from Lavigne
She bought for me the purple colour and i had the white one already lolx
But i like both colours

Perfume from Jacinta

Faceshop product from Kat

I love it alot,keep using

Handmade candle from the magician

And necklace from mom

Towel set from Yue

This sums up my last post, the 1 Gb space has ran out as i will shall be locating to

http://ctrlz-fragmentation.blogspot.com/

I know its quite long, but this will test you spelling lolz.

Bye bye blog and account, 8 years and i am so moving on..

2011-04-05T06:27:00.001-07:00

I got the news that she and him were supposing to be more loving and closer after the abortion incident, then it turned out that she had a change of heart. And I see how like myself very much, the same lips that uttered the sweetest honey-coated words now spew of disgust, vileness and hostility, depicting very much of the cruel reality of money. I am not in a position to comment on whose fault I think it is with regards to the betrayal, but I really do sée differently if you see the entire picture of slamming your ex.but I can only envy her strength of being emotionally self reliant. I am only starting to grow now.hope she knows what she is doing

2011-04-03T02:36:00.000-07:00

Finally realized who the models are already..
Photo taken last year at Eddie Ho's Boutique

I took a photo with Melissa Faith Yeo... http://www.melissafaithyeo.blogspot.com/ ... so pretty right.

She is the next up and rising star, and i think that she is so bold to admit that she did a boob job. Like what she said, people are judging all time. There is nothing wrong in doing breast implants to look sexier, but it is so wrong to say that you are naturally well-endowed but you are not.

okok. now that i have so gotten over the break up, there are tons of things i wanna do. and i shall post a last post about my birthday before i relocate my entire blog address and account.. cause space running out liao.

2011-03-31T20:51:00.000-07:00

快乐不是拥有，而是祝福。。。

I hereby give up on any thoughts of him ever coming back, especially after seeing how happy he could and can be with someone else, and he is so much happier with her than me, I thought I will not make it through to giving him up, that a panic attack or nervous breakdown will follow, but hey, I am still breathing and living normally, at least for this moment. And when I looked through those photos, it felt more of regret than any jealously, and of course I am envious, but then again, I don feel like I know him anymore, actually I don’t. so I guess this is good bye.

再见了. 亲 <3的国辉… 祝你永远的幸福>>>>

2011-03-29T19:17:00.000-07:00

Check out antontang.com before it expires.

He does amazing photography and he does photography of these box people...

Pray for Japan...

2011-03-28T21:57:00.000-07:00

Got bored so picked through some old photos of me..

I can believe it but my photos storage space on blogger has reached its limit..

I guess its time to move to a new address.

i think i used up 1 GB of all the space.

Me at 17.. Smaller eyes cause back then i used to draw both upper and lower eye liner..

CNY at 18 year old..

Really bad eye makeup...

18 at Dave's 20th birthday

I cant believe how AH LIAN i LOOKED

20th...

With a little aid of photoshop but i think i look more human..

Getting these panic attacks recently, and i swear to you that there is nothing worse than having an episode of

derealization, you feel like you don belong anywhere,and you just want to run , but you have no idea where. Its a case of losing touch with reality.

And in turn i have to scared myself back to reality, being afraid of something concrete or even the supernatural is so much better than leaving yourself hanging in the air.

I m losing control...

2011-03-25T02:08:00.000-07:00

听梁静茹的歌，忘记那姓梁的人。。。

你真的很无”梁“心。。。

2011-03-21T22:16:00.000-07:00

Went to do charity work with St Vincent De Paul Church Community to visit old folks that needed financial assistance yesterday. Our job was to talk , understand and qualify their situation.

I thought i would find very run down 1 rooms flats with lots of cluttered rubbish and old folks that were just very pitiful. But i was so wrong. The URA or HDB really do their job well, so much that beneath the modern facade of the 1 room flats, you will never know that these are 1 room flats. Ups for the maintenance.

I swear to you that the rooms of some of these old folks are so clean, and they are so much so tidier than mine. And they do have televisions sets at the very least.

And they seem to be so happy too when we talk to them, and despite their really poor situation, they are not like grumpy or depressed. There was a wife that can even laugh about her husband constant need for going under surgeon knife. And Singapore government really do take care of them very well, on top of their monthly 300 plus allowance, they have food rations coupons to help them to get through. And all medical expenses are paid too. Maybe its just me but they maybe hiding all of their misery inside of them, but then again, for people who are really tired of living , i really dont think they will keep their place so clean.

It is utterly mind blowing that the worst and poorest of Singaporeans are all living at least well enough to have a roof over their heads, beds to sleep in and TV to watch. You wont die of hunger cause old folks don eat much. I mean it in a good way really.

As compared to India, ( which if i want to do any charitable work will be there cause they do not eat beef), i could feel that we are so so much better off. I almost cried when i read in humanity magazine that the poorest of poorest girls don even have sanitary pads to wear, and the girls had to find virtually anything to keep herself clean every time of the month. From spoiled stuff cushions at home to even USED sanitary pads they have to find from the market place.

I CANNOT IMAGINE THAT.

I think it is just a insult to human rights to use a USED sanitary pad, and mind you, used sanitary pads are even consider an unaffordable item to many. I don know why i relate more to sanitary pads than people who are have no food to eat. I guess because either way, peope in both developed and developing nationas have some kind of crisis with food that is either you don eat cause you have none to eat, or you don eat because you are trying to lose weight.

Either way, i guess we singaporeans are so so so lucky.

2011-03-16T20:57:00.000-07:00

"Do you ever wonder if the guy in the puddle is real, and you're just a reflection of him?"

— Calvin and Hobbes

2011-03-13T05:50:00.000-07:00

Because i ever feel so strongly for you..

Polaroids on my miss earth tag..

Bought a new pair of climbing shoes..

It is cheap, like 60 plus dollars..

They make sure that i cut my toe nails.

Went to Dave House for his room warming like yesterday,

( i know what you guys are thinking, explain later) or that is what he calls it..

And so he says, finally after 22 years of waiting, he has his own room..

A pair of fishes he keeps ...

Seriously, his room is so much neatier than mine..

His 32 inch lcd tv and surround sound speakers which are even behind his bed..

And yes he plays golf..

His queen size bed with the king size quilt cover I bought for him.
And i made sure i return him his soft toys..

And for once i tasted "married life", which i cannot adapt to instantly. The bed feels so uncomfortable as it is already, for it is so new and hard. Worse is really when someone sleeps next to you on it. And it really doesnt matter whether or not you love him or not, because when you are just want to get some shut eyes and someone keeps fidgeting, it really becomes irritating. Plus it feels weird to have your privacy invaded, like you cant talk to yourself before you sleep anymore, and pretend the pillow is him but he is next to you and wouldnt hug u, you cant sleep and wake up on the floor. Ok i guess you get my point.

And back to the bag issue,

even my mother says it looks like a girl tote. And they don get the idea of a guy using this, so it turns out to be a gift to myself...

Explaining now about dave issue, i think we are together, cause he says so . but what happens tomorrow is another mystery.

And i guess plan A work out eventually, I did catch his attention with some very artistic photos on facebook, and getting him to admit his jealously is not easy, but it was not a mean feat either.

Just in case plan A didnt work out, i had a plan B, or actually alot of plan B. Plans that i will not concur out of my rational mind. I remembered watching soapy dramas where the betrayed/jilted/fallen/outcasted wife or gf would seemingly beg literally on their knees for the man to come back, saying that they will change and even be better than their new lover, or worse still even accept the existence of the new partner. And i went, OMG, these woman are so pathetic, why cant they just move on since that guy that you once loved doesnt love you anymore, just take it as he is dead. But we all know that what happens on TV is actually reflected from real life, and i never expected in my lifetime that i will become the type of person i once despised. So never be too confirm about anything.

Then i had plan c, which was more set on revenge. And before you make any judgements on this, I would like to spell this out clearly these are just THOUGHTS, thoughts projected out of your sub-conscious and unconscious that you have no control over. Its just when you see a hot girl or guy you have thoughts coming out of no where. And if you don do what your dangerous thoughts tell you to, you are generally safe. You judge people on their actions not on their thoughts.

And i am not ashamed to place this thoughts out, because i think they are generally creative, and who know when you might use it one day.
Ok, the thoughts include like adding his colleagues on facebook and telling them about my sad stories, making sure no girl come close to him, and of course going out with his male colleagues which will make him spit fire.
And after indulging on these thoughts for like a few days, my rational side finally knock some sense into me.And she started off with a classic line of, If it belongs to you, it will come back, if it doesnt, it was never yours in the first place. And the only result of you doing this will only cause even more irreparable damage and he will just change jobs, and you have only wasted your time.

And thus i proceed with plan A which is to do things to forget him, and it worked out fine.

And why is he so irreplacable?

Truth is, i find him so special because he is a family man marriage material, and very few guys his age are like that. He got both his riding and driving license with his own money, before 19 and now he has his own car at 22, paid with his own money. He is paying for his uni fees on his own too.. He doesnt go clubbing, doesnt smoke, gamble, drink only occasionally, so he doesnt splurge much. He like children and likes to be at home. In fact, one feels very secure with him. On top of it, he is attentive, caring and CONSIDERATE. Yes, considerate, but just that he is a little chauvinistic and has a quirky temper, he is fine for a normal girl. How bad can a guy with soft toys be?
I on the other hand do not have soft toys.

We are insatiable creatures altogether..

2011-03-12T11:36:00.000-08:00

They say life must be understood backwards only by living forward. And of course if I knew what I know now back then, you will not know what you know now, cause you wont make the same mistake…

And I confess that sadly as much as I wanted to be out and very much in the famous scene, I am faring very very badly. Call it sour grapes or excuses but failure is really like not my fault, and really as much as I would like to change myself, I really cant change the environment.

1) I don think I am that pretty enough. I guess one must have a certain look to be out in the scene, and in the famous scene I mean by clubbing and modeling scene. And I am really sick of trying hard to be pretty than I actually am not.

2)I am also too insecure to make friends, especially with really high profile models and people, so they can only be called acquaintances. If not I believe now, with my initial circle of people, others if given the same opportunities, would probably be hanging with the stars now.

3) I aint a two faced bitch. Yeah, I am not your favorite pr lady, and surely not a people’s person. As much as I tried, being like as if you are-genuinely-nice-but-actually-your-heart-is-blacker-than-pigeon’s-soot is so not me. I really cant be bitchy and nice to you at the same, regardless is behind or in your face. I may pretend to be someone I am not, but I am definitely not fake.

4) I do not have supportive parents (supporting me in that sense) . My parents are not from the entertainment industry so they are not open with the ideas of clubbing and modeling, I have curfews, like really.. No staying over , no coming home at 6 in the morning. The questioning makes me so sick of going out even late in the night. And my of course my parents are staying together, which adds on to another fact that many of the very socially active girls I know have dysfunctional families, which means less restrictions and really free to pursue what they want, and you either end up on the wrong side of boat like the author of THIS is my story, Cassandra kong or you become famous and build your legacy by winning men’s magazine competition.

5)I am a sucker for my boyfriend. Sadly, a large chunk of my inability to progress further to anything is heavily related to him. A typical, conventional boyfriend who restricts my daily routines to even my facebook photos, and as bad as a tyrant he sounds, I cant break loose of his control. And most other girls value their current lifestyle more than anything else, and they can just give love up with a snap of their fingers, but I cant. I do so much admire their persistence in going gung-ho for fame, freedom and everything else.

And so all in all, if I was slightly prettier, more confident, a tad bitchier, some what pretentiously nice, given less restrictions, and have a fuck off whenever you want attitude in love, I guess I am everywhere.

But I am not designated for such frivolousness, sot lets not push it all right..

2011-03-10T18:27:00.000-08:00

When does the bleeding stop?

F.Y.I Body shop ware house sell 70% at suntec gallery west. check it out with the IT Show.. Till saturday
Gucci sale also at M hotel on saturday.. Warehouse clearance..

-Note to self.
Do finish lace wall montage .
Paint wall.
Stop spending so much so i can go to Sydney in june.
Study so i can get my license for salesperson in next month.
Go to dive-asia exhibition next month and get that diving license.

I am an extremist , taking extreme steps to forget that extremely hard to forget person...

2011-03-08T21:12:00.000-08:00

Sticks and stone may break my bones,

but chains and whips excite me

S M -Rihanna

2011-03-07T05:50:00.000-08:00

Am glad the hectic week whizzed past..

Emotions rode me like a roller coaster..

Monday went to practice at Dj class..

Dj james in the house..

I am preparing my mixtape soon.. but fail so badly..

Wednesday was arthouse with yeo..

Exhibition on the female anatomy

I have such a fetish with backsides...

Friday went to collect my stuff from Mr Ex Boyfriend

I only wanted my Cd back only but these are what he return me and i have no idea what to do with them

1 X shin chan soft toy with xiao bai head

2X ninja shin chan KFC toy collectible

1X frog suit shin chan KFC toy collectible

1X Shin chan candy from diaso

( he loves shin chan so that was what i bought for him for these 2.5 years)

other miscellaneous

includes

1 renoma wallet which i won in FHM Top 100 sexiest party in Dblo last year

1 mp3 player that pops up

1 daiso peach drink

1 wood craved elephant i got from South Africa

1 passport photo of me

1 Polaroid instant photo of me

1 tortoise charm for incense

1 handmade friendship band i did for him

1 couple ring with necklace that belonged to his 4th finger

1 handpricked libra customized valentines 2010 keychain cushion with his name on it

1 love voucher for 1 year anniversary tgt

1 jazz album that was what i wanted to get back only

1 unforgettable memories album

Can you see how cute my art work is.

I still have no idea how he can be heartless to give it back to me...

But the worst is he gave me back this Pedro tote i bought for him for valentines..

He said he is never going to wear it again because someone said it looks like a female's bag...

Cost me like 120??

And i dun know who to give it to...

Gosh..

Saturday was lunch and movie with Marco, my best friend number 2

Ate at Astons for the first time , like really.

Always had the impression they cost like 30 per dish??

Fish and soup

Then sunday went to yishun again to climb

Really looks like some adventure thing right..

It was bouldering at the bouldering gym ..

Trying hard to do over hangs..

This is chee vui doing it..

Looks easy but its really not...

My turn

I know it doesnt look like it, but my fingers were breaking

Went to a pop up stall today at jalan besarh area..

I thought the decor was great

2011-02-28T05:38:00.000-08:00

Everytime you decide to go hostile and MIA, i have to do drastic measures to occupy myself from falling apart, but then looking on the better side of things, these were the stuff i always wanted to do but they were always on my last to do list because of relationships. And now i decide that r/s are finally taking a backseat..

                                    Went climbing yesterday, on sunday at yishun safra.. First time there and it was really like an adventure amusement park

This was on the 25 metre wall and the first attempt only lasted 10m...

Its good that there are eye candies to belay you..

Next attempt was the 18m wall, and i am so happy i conquered it.

Shall take a photo next time from the top...

Growing muscles and injuries..

Then went to pole prac at groove with veron and niccole today

veron doing a very pretty "butterfly"

this was "melody"

and i think the "dragon" is so chio too

helping each other out

this was done after the butterfly...

but i am quite weak at the moment.

haven been working out for quite some time.

thankfully veron is there to guide and insipre

the thing about pole dancing is that, you cant stop working on your muscles and once you can master most of the moves already, it actually gets kinda

BORED..

unless you can cheorgraph moves and all, i guess it gets exciting..

saw this couple on the night bus on friday and i got a allergic breakdown, i am so allergic to happy couples together.. 3 it was worse at cathy where you can only see loving couples up in arms and being happy like no one else exist in the world. I am so jealous, envious and everything else you can associate with someone who has fallen out of <3... this is crap

2011-02-20T03:29:00.000-08:00

Hello. I am officially 21st for almost a week now…

And as usual with procrastination beckoning every waking moment, I have not blogged since.

And here’s 21 facts about me that you probably never know.

Autumn Sung

1) Is In a “pop up” relationship—that is with a person that leave no traces for the few weeks that he’s away and pops up only when it is relevant or necessary. She is fed up with this arrangement and blocks his call and messages with the Blackberry he had given her for her birthday. She understands that irrespective of what she had already done, she does not deserve such a treatment. She loves the phone even more now.

2) Wants to get married badly but sadly no one thinks she is marriage-material

3) Really wants to have Eurasian kids

4) Would like to backpack in Europe alone and visit wineries and chateaus

5) Is surprising telepathic and insightful

6) Likes the colour white but owns many pink things that she does not know why

7) Does not understand why she is still so caught up with that ordinary boy that does not add her in facebook cause he doesn’t wanna let others know he has a girlfriend

8) is not a chick flick person and reads heavy books on sociology, psychology and economics

9) would like to own a variety of business one day- including a photography studio and web enterprise

10) believes that the Armageddon is coming in her generation

11) Is intrigued by anagrams – which explains her relationship to Gust Namuna on facebook- whom she believes if he was a actual person, he would be a very sexy African

12)Forgives and forgets so easily that she hates herself so dearly for it

13) Cannot eat apples because they remind her of a girl named Apple that the poping boyfriend once left her for

14) Got robbed before so she feels a brief of coldness whenever someone runs past her

15) Surprising enjoys being in long term relationship

16)Believes that there are only 2 kind of men in the world, men with standards and men with double standards

17) thinks she is an angmoh pai stuck in an ah lian body.

18) Doesnt see why someone can get upset over platonic friends hanging out individually

19) Vows to live happily ever after and not one ounce of happiness less than the popper for she wants him to envy and regret for toying with her

20) Gets turn on by men with goatees

21) Sees herself being very successful in the future

And heres 21 facts about me...

Anyway here are randomn photos...

Said i wanted to find the chanel tatoos and voila i managed to get them for my birthday..

Attended mentor's event at National Museum yesterday

Supposing to be Dj set

It was indeed an artful place to hold such an event..

Inside the ladies and took photos..

Headed to zouk, phuture and velvet after that..

Was happy caused i got signed in and got free entry to all the clubs..

But the music wasnt appealing so we ended up eating roti prata instead..

And it was actually my first time to phuture and velvet and second time to zouk..

And the first time i went to zouk, Bob Sinclair was playing..

totally random but cool...

2011-02-05T22:17:00.000-08:00

Happy CNY. Yeah, i know ths is like the 5th day already , but i have been away to Malaysia again before the eve, so this is a late post.

I am starting my spring cleaning now.. And preparing for my big bang this saturday.

At first i was so excited about it, then later i grew somewhat dull..

things that i may have to do without.

Chanel Temporary Tattoos..

I know they are so last year but still what better chance to wear them right?

Ordering from ebay will not reach before my birthday

Gucci Limited Edition Valentine's Ipad case.

Of course you will need a ipad to to buy one of this case,

and sadly singapore gucci flagship store does not sell this beauty.

So, i will be ordering from gucci website via vpost.

But again, it will not reach on the 12th.

Things to prepare for the 21st, which i haven done anything yet..

Door gifts,

i am baking cookies for my 60 guest.

and inside my goodie pack, will be love notes for everyone..

Montage

And the gruesome job of finding old photos of me and placing my transition from a little monster to a little lady.

Script

And my dearest Phoebe will be my MC for the night,at least to introduce the cake cutting cermony, harmonica playing, and magic show.

Ballons

What is a party without any ballons, and my ballons must be of heart shapes..

And i so intend in making this as well..

A heart shaped frame ballon~~

I also want a macaroon tower.

Guess i will have many sleepless nights until the 12th, but your 21st is only once in a life time thing right?

Hope it will be smooth

2011-01-27T22:32:00.000-08:00

Went to sentosa with veronica and she brought her friend along, so i bought christmas along too..

He loves the sands but hates the water..

So cute!

We actually share the same name too..

Go Veronicas!

Sat in a car with very cool blue inside lights..

Then went to Kallang Leisure park japanese restaurant to have dinner.

This happened when i was exiting Vivo city, just as i stepped out of the staircase, i missed the last whole step and twisted my ankle..

Wrapping done by my mom

Went to sinseh and he wrapped it into a cabbage for me..

But thank god it is better now..

And blogger has finally come to its senses to have multiple image upload.

Loading pictures is no longer at nightmare..

Incase you wonder what i am doing right at this junction of my life, i am taking the Real Estate Salesperson course, taking Dj course and also a degree in Finance & Investment.

So my life is kinda packed.

Gonna earn tons of money next time~~~~

2011-01-25T23:11:00.000-08:00

I promise to blog more often, even though this means posting up old entries..

This was for the opening for Eddie Ho's Baby Boutique.

like in oct /nov

My levis specs..

This lashes really make your eyes POP.

And is one of the most i ever bought

Like 18 bucks?

My initiative to give a plant..

Supposing for prosperity

At millenium walk parco..

With eddie ho's company of artise stars..

They look familar but i don know who is who..

Thought this is cute..

The shoes are awesome!

With the owner himself..

Recieved this organ donation card and i pledged to give everything, even for scienctific study purpose.

Can you imagine people using your organ to conduct experiments?

Emo turtle.

This works!

2011-01-23T05:26:00.000-08:00

Haven uploaded photos of myself in a long time..

Incase you thought i went out of shape , i have..

In fact i have been bending into all sorts of shapes so that i MAY be a contortionist one day..

Was bored at home so i did up photos of pole dancing with my hottest 12 inches...

And this is where my newest blog banner come from..

This was the split that got me nortorious

This photo makes me look fair..

Check out my dumb-bells

Salsa pose..

Love this photo..

Looks like i have extra long legs and the emphasize on the 12 inches platform..

The blood got to my head that made me red..

This is a gemini transiting into a extended butterfly but too bad i didnt have enough strength so it looks like this..

Went to S.A.M last weekend ..

This was one of their exhibition..

Bottles of human blood ..

A vampire buffet

They had like art pieces made from human bones.

I think this are the nicest..

Random picture.. that got me emo

Places in singapore where they got like collection of smells.

That was what i wore that day for feeling artistic

The effect of long legs was gladly achieved

Lower falshies are so in..

Hello eye.

Rainer cherries from austraila..
Dad friend got it in 5 kg..

Even christmas loves it

He licks his lips

The smallest silky terrier i ever saw..

2011-01-07T07:49:00.000-08:00

So may i aint going to celebrate on a rooftop afterall, just hopes it rains madly that night that i won feel so sore about not having it upstairs.

And so this was what i planned..

It was a choice between

One altitude,

The view is fabulous right???

Lantern at the fullerton bay hotel,

Looks comfortable enough

Yin Yang at club hotel

ok, quite chic...

I decided to hold on the 12th cause people will be mad celebrating on the 14th itself, and who wants a monday party right?

I am putting my guests at 50 pax for food...

and working at a budget of 3000.

And this was what happened..

One altitude already had bookings on 12th, 13th and 14th already... exclusive party they meant, and i guess should be weddings luh.

and 11th the friday could do with some inclusion but cant be exclusive and the pricing was like $90 per pax.

and i have no idea what they offer..

Totally out of my budget and non-exclusive.

And the fullerton one is also too hungry for my guests stomach..

They charge 40++ for like 8 canapes.

And one piece cost like $5...

$5 for a biteful and gone.

And there are live stations too

Live Station are like buffets..

- House Made Smoked Salmon, Condiments at $18.00++ per person

- Japanese Sushi at $22.00++ per person

- Black Truffle Risotto at $15.00++ per person

- Pasta Live Station - Penne Pasta with Tomato Basil Sea food sauce Or Truffle-Parmesan Sauce at $28.00++ per person

- Crepes Suzette at $15.00++ per person

And that was the only food they offered..

I thought it was totally not worth it given the price and the food they offer.

And hey this wasnt included of drinks yet.

if i really did do a $100 per pax inclusive of free flows of liquor and drinks,

they will be going home with

8 pieces of bitefuls, a bowl of pasta and lots and lots of liquid in their stomach....

worse than a chinese wedding dinner where you bao $100 and at least eat to your stomach content..

and did i mention that the whole booking of the place is 39,000?

then there was erm ying yang which was really what i wanted if it was on monday night..

so for exclusive from 5-9 is 3000.

but too bad it was a monday night.

and for saturday itself its X4 the price, 12000?

and i guess that 5-9 is not a nice hour have a party..

and furthermore, because i am not doing an exclusive party,

they do not have any special catering menu for me..
its just order from the bar..

it was unbelieveable. ..

Then i remember the long forgotten club house that i used to go..

Thankfully,My parents are still members there..

So they do have a terrace too.. sky terrace, rooftop .

and a new like bar like place

I guess i will be taking this "relish"

and the food price is reasonable .

8 menu items for like 40 per pax.

and the food are looking satiable.

The worse parties i been to are those that i go with a present, and somehow or rather i end up with an empty stomach...

So i am putting my guests first this time round, and getting the money really worth for.

And putting them at convinence for the venue is just at city hall, no need to walk miles into ulu chalets... and at least there is a a view of the city scape too.

The roof top seems pretty mandane..
No lighting nor pool or anything..
Just an empty space..

But the newly open bar looks promising, at least there is aircon inside and a bar..

And drinks are going at club prices like 5.60 at a shot?
Bottles are affordable too..

And i am organizing entertainment too..
A 30 min of magic show performance
( someone told me today that i should not have a magic performance because this is not a kids party , how amusing)
D-Jing by yours truly.
And cake cutting of course..
There will be significant door gifts.
And best dressed awards.
I am giving out perfumes..
Couple ones..

Erm that is for it for now...

And lasty yeah, there is a theme..
Come in red and fiery raw !
I am still so earth friendly so you can rewear your CNY clothes..

Counting down...

2011-01-04T08:16:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year one and all!

It's going to be my 21st birthday next feb and i am fretting over on how to celebrate.

Problem is i am too shy to invite people, i know most of my close friends will come but i wanna make it fun...
so i wanna invite like past acquaintances... like, classmates erm, people i have worked with. and i have always been celebrating the day with few or maybe one other signifciant indiviual for the past many many years, i believe this will be my chance to celebrate with many people in this lifetime/ and i am so scared of rejections, at least this time. and i wanna hold it in a club or maybe a bar, i have been eyeing on the rooftops one but i don know the cost. Its strange to say that regular clubbers would hold it in chalets or hotel rooms, and anti-clubbers like me would like to hold it in funky places. And because my birthday falls on valetines day, bookings must be made fast. Hotels rooms are always booked, restaurants charge exorbitant prices, and not to mention lovely flowers that cost bombs.

As compared to people who have birthdays on significant days, i think valentines day is the most expensive of all. There's is never valentines day offer on restaurants like maybe for mother or fathers day, nor great sales like on christmases, no one jacks up prices for roses. in fact really, valentines day is the most expensive day in the world!

i realized i should load up the photos for africa..

haven have time to caption it, and it is messy, but shall make do first. will edit when theres time

2010-12-27T05:16:00.001-08:00

Spend christmas in the most spectacular fashion ever..

It was simple really, no partying .

So christmas was spend celebrating with Dear Dear and Christmas.

It was a surprise, he bought us to the park with the bridge but i am not sure what is called...

He love to give surprises and this was what he packed for the picnic..

Christmas had his dog treat and christmas birthday cake..

Look at him go..

Cutest cake ever..

I tasted it and cakes for dogs are like sugarless.

Dear christmas present to me...

A minnie mouse cup..

Why so?

Because he won the mickey mouse one in his company lucky draw and he thought it was meaningful to get me the other one so we will be a pair..

So sweet right??

Then my parents had a party down at the condo facilites..

Dear set the ballon up..

Anna Sui from my dearest auntie doris...

Was reading through my old blog just now i realized how much anti-social i have become...

It seems i was so much lively and happier in the past.

Things change so do people, but i never knew i could be one of them..

---Life is like a hot bath, it's nice to get in, but the longer you stay, the more wrinkled you become.

2010-12-23T23:10:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas!
Its Christmas 2nd bark day tommorrow. And he is looking cute as ever...
Maybe going to buy a cake for him.
Have a great party !

2010-12-12T06:08:00.000-08:00

The itinerary was a 12 day trip, first to Mauritius,then to cape town, then to jo-burg back to Maurice, then to Singapore again.. Sat on a total of 5 times aeroplane, couldnt get more jet-sick.

Who knew there was air Mauritius?At least i didnt.

And so i was going to land of the extinct dodo bird, and where Indians speak french.

Playing god finger on ipad...

At least i thought they had in a in flight entertainment system

Overlooking pula tekong

And they were nice to provide a mandatory preview of exercises onboard the screen.

And i watched this for like 5 times..

After some 6 to 7 hours, we saw the border of the Mauritius..

The waters are like so clean and green

The land was like 3 times the size of lion city

At the airport..

Their immigration could have done alot better..

Haven seen brats in a while in sg..

the 5 stars tour didnt put 5 stars. and we had a hard time figuring out who the heng and lam party was..

Magic schoolbus

Onboard our bus..

They have stretches of padi fields...

Left over lunch from the airport..

so magical were the woods.

Our hotel was tamassa..

the sign was blocked by the van..

took a journey of 1 and half hours to get there from the airport

welcome dance..

Banana welcome drink

hotel view was as such

the room were one of the best ever designed..

everything was perfect except that there was a hole in the wall that allowed the bedroom to look over into the bathroom without any curtains covering.

went to walk by the beach...

lots of sea urchins

starfish..

so beautiful!!

u could really see the real sunset there and then..

like the sun really sank into the horizon

went for food at night..

this was roti prata or i thought so..

last picture of the stay at maurice before i came back 10 days after..

went snorkel ling as part of their free and easy activities..

and so we went into this glass boat...

see the surface...

nothing much to dive as the corals were just as dead as those in tioman and bintan...

my feet were the same colour as the sand..

me suntanning

off to the airport and back to singapore...

bye bye dodo..

(and the dodo btw was a flightless bird that was at least 25kg and this was a real replica of its size...)

next to post would be capetown and jo-burg..

2010-12-04T03:53:00.000-08:00

Back from the other continent just this afternoon. Still getting used to the jet lag..

Just to show you how beautiful Africa can be...

This was in Capetown...

And i fell in love with the city as soon as i landed...

Taken by me...

This looks more like a painting then a photo to me.

Can use as post card photo already lolx...

Didnt know that there are seasons in Africa as well, and though it was summer there, the winds that blow from the Atlantic ocean were chilling..

More photos soon!

2010-11-23T05:30:00.000-08:00

Mending Old Bridges

Burning Dieased Towers

I wont be tortured by your evil soul

2010-11-19T23:24:00.000-08:00

I am going to africa!!

So excited. Going to Mauritius, Capetown,Johannesburg for 11 days...

Its Spring there now, and i didnt know they have 4 seasons too...

Going to head down to the safari plains and use binoculars to peek at the animals....

ok. whats there not to like about africa?

I am not racist, i don distest french.

Maybe theres no shopping thats all.

My mind is a whirlpool, it churns out unrelated thoughts

2010-10-28T23:50:00.000-07:00

-lala, thanks for the first part of the comment, and no i didnt lie about my age,name and height. why would i? the introducer got my age wrong. and i have been known as autumn since like 17 ?
-kiki-eh ok lor.

It's strange that i have keyboard warriors on my blog, and 80% of the time the keyboard warriors are people who are actually close acquaintances, or even so called friends. I have already like a clear picture of who kiki is, because only HE will make out a comment like this. But point taken, and then ?

If kiki, is who i think he is, but he is most probably who i think he is, so i think that he is he who i think he is. Anycase, just put it as my assumption is right, or even if i was wrong, i believe that he has not let go of the feud with me. So here i am to address the feud.

Just like a secret crush, a feud can be like a one side affair, and i never knew about that until like miss earth final night, because this person pulled like a fast one on me. I will not reveal what he did, but in any case it was unpleasant to toy around with my tickets which cost like 50 each. And a few days later he message me that the act was to pay me back in my own coin, cause i said words without thinking and insult his photography art, and these events happened like at least 8 months to 1 year back.
When does a guy come across as petty or is he just protecting his pride? I guess once someone habour tiny grudges more than 6 months, he can be said to have a capacity of pettiness relative to the things he habour. Ya i do say the wrong words at times but i don do so intentional, but intention was never to cause hurt, my words are unintentional. I am just a less tactful person at times.

i believe that peter pan exist because some 26 year old people just never grow up.

2010-10-21T02:56:00.000-07:00

My first flight as a pageant contestant.

And i spent a few days over the soreness of not getting any titles, nor even the top 8.

It was a very tough fight as there were 18 of us.

And this year winners were all non-veterans of the modelling events industry, actually most of the winners never even done modelling before.

And being like me, this is also their first ever pageant too.

So what were they looking for?

Experience? Nope

Cause? Not really.

Personality? Sort of.

Relativity ? Definitely.

At the pageant, you will meet all kinds of girls.

Girls who are truly nice.

Girls who try to be friendly and nice, which meant they are not genuinely nice.

Girls who feel that they are entitled.

Girls who try to not be too political.

Girls who try to expose the profitable side of pageants.

Girls who stands in line blocking her neighbour contestant by blocking or swaying her hair all the time.

(that would be my neighbour)

Girls who try too hard to impress ( one of those would be me)

Losers speeches would always be” I have tried my best so I have no regrets.”

My speech will would be “I tried beyond my best, therefore I regret.”

I don regret joining though, but I definitely feel sore over how I approached and handle matters.

One of which was choosing to use a message which didn’t really come from me, as it sounded impressive and awesome when the person said it.

But when the judge asked me what did it really mean, I gave away by my reply as I have completely no idea what I was talking about.

Damn, I should have just stuck to my vegetarian message.

I shall upload the contest photos soon.

But the photos would just remind me of my mismatched endeavour.

But I would surely thanks my best best friends for coming down to support me.

Cass! Although your bf made a fool out of me, but still tell him I said thanks.

Yeo Yong Seng, the quite male version of me.

Roubin for being one of my best friend.

And of course my family.

My mother made this for me..

Very sweet right.

Me and eileen at Powerhouse..

We share something(one) in common.
We once shared the same boyfriend.

Ok, that sounded wrong.
It should be, we shared the same ex boyfriend.

Usually, things turn out weird when you meet the ex of your partner, but i think it is ok.
And when girls get together you never know what they will say.
Especially when it comes to two ex-s, i guess it gets worse..

But nah, me and eileen are mature adults.
Whats over is over.
There's no use getting jealous at all.

2010-10-11T09:25:00.000-07:00

Last week was a eventful week. Spent birthday with Dave, failed my TP, i was out of the circuit within 5 min. And we had prejudging for miss earth.

It was my tai tai week to prepare for the finals and i didnt enjoy it very much

Slimming

Slimming was at Bottom Slim.

I signed on a new package for 10 times at 288 including being wrapped up in plastic...

In case you though slimming was comfortable no it is not.

Endurance of hot, cold and tightness..

Facial at bioskin...
One time is at 58...
Diamond peel was the treatment.

Then went to Medical Aesthetics at Hougang to settle my outbreak problem.

I did a laser soft peel for the first time and it felt like a thousands ants biting
But the after effects are so good, my face grew more radiant

It cost 175 just for ten minute of treatment and gosh it was just half price.

Spent $364 inclusive of medication there..

And i did my first Brazilian ..

You have to spread your legs out and allow the therapist to touch you like she is your mother
But back to the point,

And it was not really THAT painful, i wouldnt say the same for men but my therapist was very good.
After like pulling, she would press down on the area to lessen the pain.

Since she does Brazilian for men also, and she has to handle their penis,

so I asked her causally

If they ever get erected..

and she says it natural and it happens all the time..

But after a few tugs, they will just go soft..

I think besides being a hooker, her occupation allows her to see the most number of erected penis.
I bet even the urologist don even see that many number...

Spend like over a hundred of bucks there..
Did it for my arm and armpits too but i think it wasnt worth it for the arm area cause they are grown back like alr...

Signed up for another package of eye brow shaping at 10 times for 50 bucks..
And they gave me face threading too..
And it was pain again..

If it was for the pageant, i dont think i would appreciate the pain of beauty, and also the beauty of pain..

I was so distracted on my traffic police test that i forgot to step the brakes and i ended up hitting, striking and mounting the kerb.
I got like 28 demerit points and 2 immediate failures within 10 mins..

Online voting for miss earth contestants..

http://www.missearthsingapore.com/

People were telling me about the photos and i agree they do not do justice to us..
They were makeup by makeup students...

I am contestant number 5 ..
I need your votes!

Finals is this thursday...

2010-10-03T08:11:00.000-07:00

So many things to do this week. Miss Earth Preparation, Driving TP test, school, dance lessons work and more work.

I am so on the verge of a mental breakdown, turbo has surely been over boosted.

The pressure to perform for Miss Earth is stifling, and the thought of excelling just put further weight on my shoulders.

However this is an enjoyable experience that I would like to treasure very much, regardless the outcome. I believe that being in a pageant has already proved many of my acquaintances, especially those who looked down on me many times and years before wrong. And also being here has also allowed me to gain more exposure and meet more people. After all, only around 50 girls are taking part in Miss Singapore pageants annually. And I am glad to be one of them.

Incase you wonder what is this beauty queen’s preparation for upcoming prejudging and finals night

Waxing

Its everything up and down under. And its my virgin(shhhhhhh)experience to ever go waxing, so I am considering a American or French bikini waxing. And I am admit to be a little intimidated.

Hair

Hair colour must be natural, cause we are Asians, so I have to dye my hair to a darker shade.

Time to also get a shapely hair cut.

Nails

Manicure and pedicure. French Mani would be perfect along with a little blings blings.

Skin

Nothing is more important than having porcelain skin.. But I am still having break outs at the moment.

Lots of concealer is needed to cover my 10cents and 50 cents too.

Figure

Fortunately for me, I am skinny enough however, I am not that toned. So more exercises till 14th of Oct..

I think that is all on the aesthetics part.

Intellect

As miss earth is the pageant with a green cause, its crucial that we understand our current environmental issues.

However from the organizers info, questions need not be all on green issues. I have to rely on my wit then and there.

Catwalk

At least you impress before you open your mouth. Catwalk and the choreography are a challenge to master for me but nonetheless more practice.

And we have suitcases to contain lots of other stuff like stickon bras, heels, makeup and outfits and lots of quick aid.

Winning any title is a bonus for me, but most importantly I got to do what I always wanted, that is to take part in a national pageant. The organizer says that Miss Earth might be broadcasted on national tv on starhub channel, if that were so, I would even need to look even better. 2 weeks to go..

2010-09-20T12:17:00.000-07:00

Memories that keep flooding back...

( i look like a sea urchin)

2010-09-13T09:33:00.000-07:00

Went to loving hut to promote my vegetarian advocation in Miss Earth Eco-magazine

Was having a hard time choosing between the 3 pictures to place for my space..

I decided to go with this..

I love this raspberry soya milk!

2010-09-07T10:16:00.000-07:00

You know you have gotten over LOVE when the songs you used to hear that pulled through the most painful period no longer relates anymore. When the songs had lyrics that you thought were written just for you; cause the words that conveyed every single emotion now becomes so strange and unfamiliar, and THAT SONG just became another song, you know you have succeed in falling out of love. And suddenly you will wonder like a 12 year old, how does it feel to truly to fall in love cause you have never been in one before, but of course you know better. You know you have done yourself proud when you can forgivingly face the man who robbed 5 years of your life. You can’t do any better when meet ups with your latest ex always turn platonic.

Giving my take on love as a valentine’s day baby, I find love or romance over-rated. The only unconditional love in the world is parental, or most of time charitable love. When people choose a partner for marriage, they choose one that fits their bill, someone who is of their standard. One would not even dare to consider another who does not half way meet the board, whether or not the feelings are plausible. All in all, when people marry, their partner should be of their desirable characteristic :

1.Pretty (checked)

2.Can live with my parents(checked)

3.My parents like her (checked and double checked)

4.Can do housework(checked)

5.Like children(checked)

6.Must be stay home mom and take care of children until they are 2 years old(checked later)

7.Must earn less than me but at least 2k (tripled checked)

An example set of standards derived from my beloved ex, which I can in no way fulfill from 2 to 7.

Unlike what it was used to be – “love has no reason, I just know you are the one for me”

vs

“ I have every reason to marry you”

Love has taken on realism. Not that I scorn it, but it is just quite sad. What happened to “ we will work out something out cause we just care about each other so much” ? It is all like signing a silent pre-nuptial agreement which is great because you have all agreed at least before getting married so you can save the trouble of quarreling later. And you go around finding the woman of your dreams with this pre-planned check list, crossing and checking until you find the right one, and when you do , I can safely say that she may be 7 out of 7, but the forged angel may not have feelings for you, nor you for her.

And if next time someone with a preplanned check list of standard tells me that they love their partner, I would just tell their partners they are worth 5 ticks and 2 crosses.

And so I lost to a series of 6 crosses….

2010-09-05T05:24:00.000-07:00

The ironic idiosyncrasy of animal lovers…

This post is a bit late but still I have to give my very honest opinion.

I cried and lamented over the comments on STOMP on the dog who got slammed ten times by a crazy person.

First things first, I have a dog. Second, I DO NOT think the dog deserved it. Third, I was feeling very sorry for the shallow and mediocre minds of such people and the extent they would do to support their short sighted belief.

Sign a petition so that the crazy man will go to jail for a longer time because he slammed a dog 10 times?

Clearly the person should be locked up in a mental institution and not in prison as he has demonstrated acts that are evidently anti-social. I remembered the report of a cat murderer in bedok north some years back. And although he has been in jail for abusing cats before, that did not curb his behaviour at all. He ended up killing more.

The slamming of dog 10 times was deemed as animal cruelty no doubt, but I don see why people who claim so that they love animals or think being cruel to animals can still eat meat.

Its like “A DOG got slammed 10 times today. Lets observe one minute of peace” and “Hey lets celebrate the death of 12,000 cows with this piece of tender succulent piece of loin steak.”

Or perhaps this saying holds true. "One death is a tragedy, a million deaths is a statistic." Quoted by former Soviet leader, Josef Stalin .

Dying is not that bad for animals as compared to living a life worse than death. And many times, they don’t even die properly. Fowls are scaled alive, cows are skinned while they are conscious. Pigs are dismembered with their heart pumping. And living in conditions that would slightly make sure their lives are hanging on by a thread seems like it is inevitable and not a form of animal abuse.

And please do not start on different status of animals, like how a dog is ranked higher than a pig because a pig does not feel as much as pain as a dog, or a dog does not share the same mental capacity as a chicken or a cow is not as loyal as a dog so they be justified in this manner to die and get eaten.

I would not say I am a animal lover but I know that I wouldn’t eat meat so I will not contribute to more innocent animals suffering/slaughtered/skinned/slammed on/probed into/abused/stepped on. What more for animal lovers?

Everytime I see you , I tell myself not to fall ; and when I do, all you do is to push me away...

2010-08-28T09:53:00.000-07:00

Its been a hefty 3 months since we broke up and things has been cool for us.
I thought that i could just forget about the past, snap-just like that.
But of course i couldnt been more wrong.
Its not about waking up to a wet pillow nor days without eating or drinking.
In fact i binge eat and drink whenever i feel depressed.

The past hit me hard , harder than it has been than it was 3 months ago.
It took me 3 months to relate when he said:
Why did you do that?
Why did you lie?
Why did you break my trust?

At that point of time, i was just too concerned with my own life before, having fun and i was just being selfish.
And now when i think of it, i find it so unfair for him.
Why should he pay for the mistakes i make ?
Why should he be feeling sad, angry over the stuff i do?
And i am the one who gets the joy whereas he gets the sadness.
Suddenly i find it so illogical...

Irreversible was the amount of damage I've done that he cant even face me even though we met up cause he missed me.

How i wished i was more responsible back then, i feel ashamed of myself now.
Hope he will find solace and peace .
And they were right when they said i dont deserve you, you deserve better ...
No one should atone for another mistake..

2010-08-25T09:42:00.000-07:00

Cosmoprof Portfoilio
(Fiona)

Its been 3 months alr...
After one round of aimless trying out stuff, i cant believe that i am back to the FnB line. Of course things are so different when you are the manager, you don have to take orders anymore and you feel so satisfied from clearing up the previous mess that was left.

I used to ask myself if i wanted to be WITH a rich guy, or be LIKE a rich guy. Now my answer is surely the latter. Pitiful are the girls who get adorned with LVs by their rich partners and pay a price of betrayal for that branded leather.

Also my vegetarian diet is so effective. It makes me focus and also more energetic. And if you wants to improve on your flexibility eat less meat. I did a full split today during dance class after 3 weeks of no stretching.

2010-08-21T06:05:00.000-07:00

Miss Earth clean up some day back..

All of the contestants..
Glad i met some great girls there!
Assumptha and jessebella were from Singtel Grid girls.
And jessebella is so soso so friendly which was quite different on how she is on portrayed on FHM GND last year..

We collected like 800kg of rubbish that day at sungei buloh

Did a shoot today with half of the girls..

i am like so short

Us with valerie , last year winner..
she is so tall !
she is 1.80cm before heels ..
We look so tiny beside her..